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Usually my three year old daughter would asked me if she’s big enough to do things.Just like any normal three year old,they’d think they can do evrything.

Last week,she said to me “mama,wala ako hair ne” pointing to her underarms.Then I replied “pag big ka na anak”.And she said “ah papa and mama big na?” hehehe

it seems she can’t wait to get bigger! On my side I wish she’d stay small and innoscent.

This morning she was asking me again the same question she asks everyday “mommy,big na ako?” then I’ll say not as big as mama or yes your big already. This morning I answered her “yes big na Chloe,so you help mama in cleaning the house,cooking,washing the clothes and washing the dishes. She automatically said “Yes!”

Actually,she loves to do housework.Sometimes I find it annoying,it makes my work longer.But how will she learn if I don’t let her?

After she answered me,she ran outside the room and went to the kitchen.Curious of what she’s going to do,I followed her.I then saw her pushing the “black chair” and was about to start cooking.hahaha!

I then have to explain to her that she cannot tough the stove or the knives without my supervision etc etc.

I know that three year ols think they are quite grown up. That’s why Chloe would usually say “e big na ako e” when I won’t allow her to do something.Then the long explaination of why begins…

We usually stay the whole day in church (since every Saturday we have social nights in the evening  and revival in the afternoon),since our house is around 30 minutes via cab away.Last Saturday,while waiting for my hubby to finish his usual video transfer of the church service,I was talking to some indonesian friends.Then I noticed chloe outside the church  riding a bicycle! I was so surprised that I called my husband to see her.I’m the scrary type of person when it comes to accidents,I guess that’s why I let my husband and Chloe go to the playground most of the time.I don’t want her to get my coward side.

But my husband said “ just let her play,let her learn on her own.” and so I just watched her from the inside.After a few minutes,the boy who was teaching her how to bike went inside and said he’s tired to teaching Chloe,so I went outside to look after her.

I can see that she’s not scared at all.Not even thinking that she could fall and hurt herself.Up she goes on the bike,trying to make it move.I laughed at her perseverance.Down again,she would push the bike to whatever position or direction she wants it to go.Then she’ll call me “mommy help me!” I tell her what to do then just like any three year old she’ll tell me ” let me,let me.” I’d go back to my chair and watch.Carefully not to let her notice my fear.

Then it happened ,she fell! I suddendly stood up almost running to her side.Before I asked her “are you ok?” I heard her say “mommy,I’m ok” is a soft confident voice.She stood up,and went up the bike again.

Sometimes I’d wish she’d be telling me those words “mommy I’m ok”, until she grows old and can do everything on her.Until she’s old.

I guess I worry too much.I guess I don’t have the courage she has.

I hope she’ll grow up without fear.And that the only fear she’ll have is the fear of the Lord.