Changes..
Sure am feeling a little down latley.
I really hate changes (parang autistic).But since I got married, I know I haven’t coped up with all the changes that’s been happening in my life.
June 2004 when I got married, it took a while to digest the fact that I wouldn’t be living with my parents anymore (isang sakay lang sila away from our house).It took a while for me to swallow all the changes.
Then August 2005 I gave birth to Chloe,another big change.I say big since I can never have the same routine I have everyday,I don’t and won’t have the same body I have (may tahi sa tummy,may puson,stretch marks and all) before,although I like having a little fat :), I can’t be alone most of the time when I want to—-list never ends. But I’ve welcomed these changes.Since the wedding I asked God to hold my hand throughtout the journey of my married life.
The most difficult change was Novemeber 2005; when we decided that Milton (my hubby) accept the job offer (which have been pending for years) here in Singapore. All my life I always wanted to go abroad, but just to see the place, as a tourist–just a visitor.I also entertained the thought of working abroad, but I never pushed through with the plans. Anyway, the decision with Milton’s job was a tough one, since Chloe and I will be left behind 6 months (the most)! I thought I was going to have post partom that time, but God was good. He held my hand all the way,even those nights when I wake up crying….
February 2006(at least less than 6 months) when we went here in Singapore; it was more difficult for me. My dad said when I cried at the airport that I have to be strong, because I have a family to take care of. Lucky we have advanced technology now,we can communicate easily through SMS,Skype,chat,phone. Still it was a big step for me. I’m getting matured now hahahahahaha!
After one year….the latest change in my life is to move to a new house.Not just the house but a new location in Singapore.New place to get used to…again.I really hate changes. Although I know it’s the only constant thing in this world…
I pray that God won’t let go of my hand through out my changing life. I know He wants me to be brave,that’s why He’s always taking me out of my comfort zone. But I hope that I’ll get use to the new place…
And I know that someday, I will happily welcome all the changes that would come my way. But for now,I”ll just try to be brave.Haaaaay!
